I See That Sun Again

Someday on February 2014
After the surgery "Appendectomy" August 22nd 2013


I See That Sun Again

I see it peeking over the parking area
from the hospital window
from the 302 room

All aflame are the heads of rye
I see the moon as an illusion
Disappear in the bluing sky

I feel my spirit fly, no pain..
The morphine still works, apparently..

I see "Sylvester Stallone" look alike face, again..
Yes, I see him.
My Dad's face again
Glad to see that face again..

I'm alive..
Thankyou LORD, my HEAVENLY FATHER




Puisi ini tercipta ketika appencitis akut itu datang. August 21th 2013.
Serangan nyeri hebat mendadak di bagian peritoneum tepatnya di  kanan bawah abdomen.

Namun, nyeri hebat tersebut membuat ku tangguh. Sakit hebatnya, jarum suntik sebesar apapun sepertinya tidak dapat mengalahkan rasa nyeri apendicitis akut itu.
Anestesi spinal pada bagian sub-arachnoid menjadi tidak begitu sakit seperti yang diceritakan orang kebanyakan.
Apalagi kalau hanya suntik untuk penggunaan cairan infus maupun suntik vaksin. Suntik macam itu jadi seakan literally digigit semut. (Padahal waktu zaman SD tiap ada jadwal vaksin dari Dinas Kesehatan, malemnya uda doa doa supaya hari esok bisa di skip)

Bagaimanapun juga, all those scapels, their green shirts dan sinar lampunya sangat menakutkan. Saya ada di sebuah meja dan dikelilingi oleh 1 surgeon, 1 anesthesiologist, 3 nurses.
Kebetulan sekali dokter anestesinya adalah alumni FK UGM pula.  dr. Aji.
So, when the procedure started, he was trying to distract my fears. He asked about his bf in med school, dr.Zainal. I know him, for he is my teacher in Faal (Physiology Department).

Jadi, siapa disini yang sudah pernah menjalani operasi usus buntu atau operasi apapun itu yang mungkin jauh lebih menakutkan ? Mungkin Anda yang pernah mengalaminya setuju dengan saya bahwa operasi membuat kita sedikit lebih tangguh dalam mengahadapi rasa sakit.

Through it all, one thing in my faith, after this surgery, When GOD's in HIS favor that i will stay alive and be the light, then i will stay and alive.
I believe that i will see the sun rises again.

Therefore, i wrote a poem about it. I know I'm so blessed for i can see that sun again.
As Ernest Hemingway best shot novel ever said, "THE SUN ALSO RISES"